Some Days

Some days it feels like nothing I ever do will be enough.
Some days it seems like life will endlessly be rough.
Some days my eyes just won't stop flooding, no matter how hard I try.
Some days fighting feelings makes it impossible not to cry.
Some days I don't recognize the girl that I see in the mirror.
Some days the confusion of what happened couldn't be any clearer.
Some days loneliness creeps in and dominates my mind.
Some days I stare in disbelief at the papers that were signed.

Some days I look ahead and I'm blinded by the future.
Some days I worry that I will fall victim to the rumors.
Some days I could not care less what anybody thinks.
Some days I want to drown the past in the strongest drink of drinks.
Some days I wish you knew that I am doing great.
Some days I don't care enough about you to muster up the hate.
Some days it hurts to know that you found love elsewhere.
Some days I find it hard to pretend I even care.

Some days I find strength that I forgot I knew.
Some days I'm proud of how I managed to get through.
Some days all I can find to wear is a smile on my face.
Some days I love that you aren't here to dirty up my place.
Some days the freedom I now have feels so well deserved.
Some days it feels Ive been released from a 10 year sentence, served.
Some days I laugh because I thought I'd miss you more than this.
Some days I want to thank you for the ultimate dismiss.

Today I am moving on.
Today I am letting go.
Today I have decided that my life will be my own.
Today I am breathing deep.
Today I demo walls.
Today I have decided to not feel guilty at all.
Today I am forgiving.
Today I am closing doors.
Today I give you back the pain you caused me, it's all yours.